HEy pep... stressed..... too much to do.... tired... gotta go now and finish my research paper that is due tomorrow.

UGH! I need sleep!!! :) see ya at axiom..... bye!

Hey again everyone.... (that wasn't too enthusiastic....sorry).

SOMEONE has changed the look on my xanga and hasn't finished.... hint hint... oh well maybe later. I also need another favor or two from that person. love u! ....

Well, I feel like crap today.......Wanna go home and sleep, but I have to work..... school is a little stressful for the first two days.... it'll get better.

There are a few exciting things goin on right now though..... I went to the studio to record some songs yesterday... was fun. I convinced my Dad to let me start a new ministry within the church.... small groups (Don't know if that was the smartest thing to do on top of all the other minstries i am a part of right now.) ........Working on some books I would like ot publish soon.

I am sorry........ I cannot continue. Please pray that I will survive work today b/c right now I feel like I could die. Last night I was at a friends house til late trying to get some very important documents off a floppy drive... then when I finally got home I still had to finish the newsletter..... etc. Anyways, I am sorry if I am not myself today or this weekend, but I am a little overwhelmed at the moment.

I must go now.............pray. please.

Luffs!

Just a quick update right now. I'm really tired right now, but I still want to go somewhere and do something........ anyways, I guess ppl r busy and stuff. I really do not want ot go back to my house right now unless there is no one there and I can go to bed, or unless Mark wants to come over and watch a movie or teach my parents how to play nerts...(now that would be a funny sight).

You know with all the hectic stuff going on in my life right now, i feel as though i am slowing down to take sort of an inventory of my life. What am I doing for God/ as God's child? What have I done for God? Where am I going? Who am I? What exactly is God doing in my life right now? There is a transition taking place. There has been a paradym shift. The entire way that I think is being transformed from one moment to the next by God forming and shaping my mind. I have felt shame lately over things that most ppl wouldn't. There have been things I have not done that I should have been doing, and now that i see the results of not doing them, I feel angry at myself for not doing them. Sometimes I wish I could change the past and my misteakes (sp?), but then I begin to think of what I have learned and am learning from those misteakes, and it seems wrong of me to want to take them back. I don't want to look back and regret (its hard not to), but I wonder about my future. Will I make the same misteake again? Have I really learned my lesson? God its't there some other way that you can teach me this lesson? I am reminded once again of a post I made on Thursday Sept. 22, 2005 (That is a hint to go back and read it so won't have to type it again).

I have gotten a fresh inspiration for my book. Its taking time, b/c as God is working in me He is changing where this book is going. Well I must go hame now, get a snack, and get to work on my book. Tonight will be a good night. Today was a good day. This weekend.... will be wonderful!

Merry Christmas to all! Luffs!!!